Life has become a fairly exhausting spectacle for me as of late. I can come up with no formula, no strategy to control the flow of this dazzling experiment I have been flung into. My head is tired. Hours in classwork are spent sleeping through lecture and paying only the vaguest of attention. I have no desire to eat, think, or interact, only to sleep. My evenings are spent tossing and turning grasping desperately at fleeting hours of rest. I cannot remember the last time I slept straight through an evening. Much chaos between the family and other loved ones has left me in a sea tossed to and fro by the waves whilst trying to balance the never-ending stress of my work. Inspiration is at an all-time low and even the impending vacation cannot seem to life these frozen spirits.
Burned out, exhausted. Call it what you will I can no longer focus on all this. If it is not one damned thing it is another. Can something finally look and up continue to look up?
As the old saying goes, 'what comes up must come down' I suppose.
An afterthought, but after hearing about the rash of little thefts confounding the Organization as of late I took to recounting all my possessions.. and have found my vibrator has gone missing. Cough it up, Ienzo!